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If we didn't have any expectations, we wouldn't be let down. Where's that nirvana I dream of? Perhaps it's just a sanctuary I've pushed my goals and dreams into. That way.. I wouldn't suffer or feel any pain in the case that I don't succeed. I'm suppose to be giving it my all? Why am I just sitting back watching the days slowly pass by. When my fingers dance over the keys I travel to a different place. In that bubble of peace and serenity I could feel thousands of emotions, memories, feelings wash over me one by one. I need a inspiration for me to sit down for minutes, hours, days, maybe even weeks for me to compose something I would be proud to play for everyone. Just there by myself. Me. Alone without being disturbed by the troubled thoughts of yesterday, today, or tomorrow.
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Today was just another day. Like the usual pool, ktv, food, fun. Or at least that's what it seems to be on the outside. Yes we may all carry smiles on our faces and hear laughter in our ears but is that reality? Or is it just a mere facade we put on for everyone to see in order to hide the fact that we all wear masks of bitter unhappiness inside. We hang out to have fun to lose control and pretend everything is happy and okay. Yet at the end of the day when we each come home the truth unwinds itself and brings everyone to face reality. When you guys pick up a beer, a cigarette, to make yourself feel better. Ask yourself, is it really helping you at all? maybe for that second. Yet when you wake up the next morning would your problems have gone away?
Day's pass by with a blur. Does anyone realize how fast our life is wasting away? By minutes, by days, by weeks, soon by months and years. We have expectations almost deemed unreachable.. yet we try. Why is it that living brings us pain? Every day I watch my loved ones in pain. Getting hurt. Being hurt. Bringing hurt. It's their pain that makes my heart ache so. It's when I wish there was a nirvana we have yet discovered. A place where everything could be blissfull and happy. When people first hear these words the first thought that may pop up would be "heaven". To go there you'd first have to reach death first and that is something I don't welcome into my head. The burden of knowing a secret, of sharing people's pain is sometimes miserable. Even watching your love ones suffer, it hurts. Oh boy it does.
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Name: Tifae
Located: New York, United States
Nationality: Taiwanese
DOB: September 04th, 1993
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Love is never easy, we begin by loving the people we can. But it is not long before we find that what we love is other then ourselves, and that our love in no protection against being wounded. Do we then seek to dominate what we love, to make it bend to our will, to stop it from hurting us, even though to do so is to betray love?
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