Is Confidence the key? I don't think so..... I think you need more then that. I know I have the talent of acting, but is it enough? Am I good enough? I can be like all those other billions of girls who want to get into the world of entertainment, but can't because they don't have what it takes. I can think that I am better then them and that I have a chance but I don't and what if in reality I just suck hairy balls. What makes me any different or more unique then all those other girls? You may think I'm stupid for having such a childish dream but of course I have fallback plans in case I don't succeed. I mean you'll never know if you don't even try. I want to reach for my dreams of being an actress even if there's a possibility that I can be shot down in a second and have my dreams crushed. You can't get up if you don;t fall right? T-T If only there was a world that we don't have to fall to reach our dreams. For now, in New York I'll just live my daily routine slowly as every day passes by.

1) Work and save money for when I go to Taiwan.
2) Practice piano at least 2hours every day.
3) Memorize the chords for my guitar.
4) Actually pay attention to my singing classes.
5) Exercise and lose at least 5TEEN pounds before august.
6) Finish my karate classes.
7) Finish my first song &put it together.

By the time I'm done with all that I think It'll be August already. Since I'm slowly fading from every one's lives, I don't think it'll make a difference if I spend less time with them. As I slowly disappear from their line of sight I'll take bold steps to my new beginning. For now I'll put 90% into my future &goals. As I think more and more about my every day life and where I'm headed the more I realize that I'm growing older and I should get a move and start on my life. Those dear loves of mine, those ones my heart painfully aches for.. those in pain. I pray that god can someday soon take your pain away, because the current state that I'm in right now I can't be of any help to you guys. I know usually I help cover up the scar like a little band aid with opinions, advices, heart to heart talks, but right now I think I would be too absent minded to help at all. All I can offer for now is a hug, possibly a warm cup of cocoa and a seat for you to accompany me and my lonely heart if you desired to do so.

Tiffanie Hsu;x3