I Hate. My . Life. Eh actually I don't I'm pretty satisfied with it right now. Nothing unusual has been happening its just the same ol` stuff. T-T It's still gloomy today. I stayed up talking to a friend all night, not like I woulda been able to fall asleep anyways. I don't want to sleep my life away. I'd like to be someone. I'd like to do something. I think I'll reach out for my goals and dreams about now. Tomorrow is a day with joyee<3; &Hopefully it will be a lovely lovely day. Q-Q <- heh dork glasses. Thats what I'm wearing right now. Except they're not at all dorky. Just a few weeks ago every day I'd put on a load of makeup even though I'm only 15. Everyday, it would be to check my clothes, check my hair, check my makeup, check my looks. Why? I don't know myself. Sense of security? If only it was that it would make my life so much easier. I'm use to being the center of attention. Even though that sounds really conceited its true. Even when I don't want to somehow I still end up somewhere near the middle. It gets hard sometimes because they don't realize what I'm feeling inside. I love these people but its just difficult. At least now I'm at the point where I don't give a crap anymore and truth be told I'm glad. Less makeup, more makeup still the same me. So everyone else can talk all the shit they want I could care more or less. Too bad I won't care at all :P Nowadays I wear light makeup and from time to time heavy makeup but I've always been the way I am, I doubt anyone in this world can change me. I like me, I hope you like me the way I am too ^_^ ~ jia you xiao wen ! wo huai xian ni men. Ni men si wo xin zong de ai. Bu yao wang jie wo<3
There's a girl livin' in this town Shes got her head up in the sky but her feet are on the ground There's a girl livin' on my street She knows outside her little world Somehow ends are gunna meet And when the roads get kinda rough She keeps one thing in mind The longest journey always starts with Once about a time And this girl has seen a lot of pain But this girls gunna smile again But she knows a flower grows everytime It rains And this girls got a lot of dreams She knows that tommorrow isn't what it seems She might not slove a mystery tonight But this girls gunna be alright
Theres a girl walking in these shoes And she knows that everythings she got is all shes got to loose Theres a dream right behind these eyes And she finds a reason to be strong with every tear she dries Being hard to fight the way things are so she leaves the world behind with the sound of doubt turned up so loud she turns the music up inside
And this girls seen a lot of pain but this girls gunna smile again she knows that a flower grows everytime it rain and this girls got a lot of dreams she knows that tommorrow ain't what it seems she might not slove a mystery tonight but this girls gunna be alright
She knows it so much she's never seen the sound will come louder to find out what it means
And this girls seen a lot of pain but this girls gunna smile again she knows that a flower grows everytime it rain and this girls got a lot of dreams she knows that tommorrow ain't what it seems she might not slove a mystery tonight but this girls gunna be alright Alright, shes gunna be alright
Love is never easy, we begin by loving the people we can. But it is not long before we find that what we love is other then ourselves, and that our love in no protection against being wounded. Do we then seek to dominate what we love, to make it bend to our will, to stop it from hurting us, even though to do so is to betray love?
I Hate. My . Life. Eh actually I don't I'm pretty satisfied with it right now. Nothing unusual has been happening its just the same ol` stuff. T-T It's still gloomy today. I stayed up talking to a friend all night, not like I woulda been able to fall asleep anyways. I don't want to sleep my life away. I'd like to be someone. I'd like to do something. I think I'll reach out for my goals and dreams about now. Tomorrow is a day with joyee<3; &Hopefully it will be a lovely lovely day. Q-Q <- heh dork glasses. Thats what I'm wearing right now. Except they're not at all dorky. Just a few weeks ago every day I'd put on a load of makeup even though I'm only 15. Everyday, it would be to check my clothes, check my hair, check my makeup, check my looks. Why? I don't know myself. Sense of security? If only it was that it would make my life so much easier. 
I'm use to being the center of attention. Even though that sounds really conceited its true. Even when I don't want to somehow I still end up somewhere near the middle. It gets hard sometimes because they don't realize what I'm feeling inside. I love these people but its just difficult. At least now I'm at the point where I don't give a crap anymore and truth be told I'm glad. Less makeup, more makeup still the same me. So everyone else can talk all the shit they want I could care more or less. Too bad I won't care at all :P Nowadays I wear light makeup and from time to time heavy makeup but I've always been the way I am, I doubt anyone in this world can change me. I like me, I hope you like me the way I am too ^_^ ~ jia you xiao wen ! wo huai xian ni men. Ni men si wo xin zong de ai. Bu yao wang jie wo<3
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